How do you start when you don’t have words to say?
I have been avoiding this post all day but know I want to be vulnerable, and way more than that, I covet your prayers for my family.
Last night while we were visiting friends and watching our kids run and play without a care in the world, I received horrible news that my healthy, sweet, 13 year old cousin Marc died suddenly on Saturday afternoon for absolutely no apparent reason. He was with his family in his home and literally was alive one moment and gone the next.
Today would have been Marc’s 14th birthday. He was the oldest of three brothers.
Words cannot express the heartache and shock.
The whys, and the questions, and the anger, and the grief to the very deepest parts of a mama’s soul.
There aren’t words.
As I lay awake restless another night, I know it’s time to write. And even though the last thing in the world I care about at this moment is a silly blog, I share because in a few days I will head North to be with family and, honestly, my faith is shaken.
I hesitated to share this very personal family tragedy with the big blog land, especially while it is so fresh, but I pressed on to share because I have to believe there is power in our story.
There is power is the community of believers that raise up holy hands together with one voice to the Holy One.
And “we will overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.”
How do we bring light and hope when our hearts are broken and shocked and confused?
So, to the amazing women of faith who read here: even though we don’t know each other, I know you are praying girls. I know your faith matters today and that your prayers are heard by a loving God.
Would you pray for me this week?
Would you pray that Christ would be strong in me, when I am so very weak?
Would you pray that hope and light will shine from me to my broken, hurting family members, in spite of myself?
And please pray that when there are no words, Christ’s love will speak calmly and gently and tenderly.
YOU are a blessing. YOUR PRAYERS matter to me, and to this crushed family, and especially to your Heavenly Father.
Thank you for praying and for sharing this prayer request with others.
— lauren —