So I’m sure you’ve heard all the buzz about one little word. Choosing that one word for the year that will define your focus. Better than a resolution. Focused. Intentional. Brilliant, I say.
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I had a huge list of words but really tried to pray for the word that God would have for me; as some say, it’s more about letting the word choose you than you choosing the word.
And I actually thought I had the word. Or that it had me. I shared with my dear friend Tami about the word I thought was my word. The word was listen; I’d thought a lot about how much I was going to really seek to hear God this year, to know His voice better. After I finished, my wise friend said something to the effect of, “Well, just be careful with that, too, that it doesn’t become such a burden.”
You know what? She was right. Not that listen is a bad word. I think it’s a wonderful word and I had already wrote a whole post, just waiting to publish it, about all the ways I was going to listen better in 2012. And I still believe that longing to know the voice of my Shepherd more this year is important and something I will seek.
But man, feeling like you’re focusing your whole year on listening and hearing the right things, this could wear a woman out. It’s kind of like it was about what I could do, or should do.
Tami went on to share about a time early in her marriage when her husband told her (in wisdom) that she acted like her salvation was a burden to her, a heavy weight on her shoulders. I don’t feel this way myself, but I got what Tami was saying about trying so hard to listen to God that I actually become a stressed out crazy mess.
When I got home that evening, I laid down next to my 3 year old guy, who was having trouble falling asleep. When he was still and quiet, I began praying about all that Tami and I had talked about, about our struggles, about trying so hard on my own strength, and so clearly, God spoke this verse to my heart:
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. (Psalm 51:12)